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一我远离柳树湾,回到大上海已经三十多年了,那激情的青春岁月,那悠悠的青弋江,那密密的柳树林,那孤独的知青小屋,那亲亲的柳树湾啊,早已成为了那遥远的回忆。三十多年来,我一直努力想把那几年的过去忘掉,把那里的人和事通通忘记,可是我无法做到,我一次次地强烈删除,一次次地失败了,反而随着岁月的流逝,随着年龄的增加,那些尘封的记忆越来越清晰,越来越刻骨铭心,越来越搅动着我的灵魂,越来越使我日夜难安。三十多年来,我看过太多的知青小说和伤痕文艺作品,我想从它们的揭露和描述中找到那段历史的丑陋和罪恶,激起我心里的仇恨和愤怒,来减轻我内心对那段过去的思念。
I am away from Willow Bay, back to Shanghai for more than 30 years, that passion of youth, that long Qingyi, that dense willow forest, the lonely green house, the kiss of Willow Bay ah , Has long been that distant memories. For more than thirty years, I have been trying hard to forget the past years and forget about the people and things there. However, I can not do it. I deleted it violently and time and again, but failing over time. With the increase of age, those dusty memories are clearer and more and more and more memorable, more and more agitate my soul, more and more make me day and night hard. For more than three decades I have read too many literary works of intellectual youth and scars and I want to find the ugliness and sinfulness of that history from their exposures and descriptions and to arouse my hatred and anger in my heart to alleviate my heart. That past thoughts of that period.