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整整有一个月,我都无法安静地入睡。有时候,睡着睡着,会突然醒来。夜半的空气如水银泻地,我的每一寸肌肤都感觉到恐慌的重压。我把脸转向窗子,窗帘紧闭着,看不见夜空和星星,但那是让我亲近和牵挂的方向。在那个方向,数百公里以外,是我父母的家,我的外婆正躺在父母家的床上。我不知道她此刻是不是正难受着,是不是还像以前许多个夜晚一样绝望地睁眼到天亮。如果是这样,那就让我陪她一起醒着。而就在一个月前,我一点都不知道,当我
For a whole month, I can not sleep quietly. Sometimes, when I fall asleep, I wake up suddenly. The midnight air, such as mercury, spills, and every inch of my skin feels the weight of panic. I turned my face to the window, the curtains closed, I could not see the night sky and the stars, but that was the direction I got close to and worried about. In that direction, hundreds of kilometers away, was the home of my parents, and my grandmother was lying in the bed of her parents’ home. I do not know if she is not uncomfortable at the moment, nor is she looking as desperately as before in so many other nights. If so, let me wake up with her. Just a month ago, I did not know, when I was